Friday, May 14, 2010

vThere are a lot of examples of characters suffering from the burden of knowing throughout the book. For starters Lily first has feelings of unbareable pain,abandonment and hurt when she finds out that her mother temporarily left her. She wishes she could go back to not knowing, to the times when she use to have to imagine what it was like, making up scenerios in her head. Because the pain of knowing is so strong and hurtful that she just longs to go back to the days when wonder was all that filled her mind. This at least did not hurt so badly and leave her wondering more, as to why and what she had done to make her mother do such a thing. Lilly moves on from the hurt and the knowledge of what happened, and not that she was ready or had a chance to fully think about what happened and process it, but she was forced to do so. She is filled with bitterness and sorrow. Yet, when she sees the photograph depicting her as a baby interacting with Deborah, however, she then realizes her mother loved her. She feels "burdened by knowing" because her life was so much easier before she had so much to think about, and instead of answering the questions she had about her mother, there are just more that come out of knowing. She sees a picture of herself and her mother and feels sudden burden of knowing, because her mother loved her, and because she now knows that her mother left her it makes her feel bad and remorsful about what she has felt and done, had she not known these feelings would not be an issue. All throughout the book she goes through a bunch of different feelings. She starts out wondering and full of questions about her mom and is filled with the want to know, she then finds out and feels hate, and in the end when she realizes how much her mother did really love her she expereinces acceptance. May feels the burden of others pain. She feels pain an dhurt when others hurt, she feels as though she is carrying the world and its sorrow on her shoulders. This begins to takes its toll on her, and although, she tries to make it stop, she cannot take the sorrow and hurting any longer and puts herself out of her misery of this very heavy burden and kills herself. August has the "burden of knowing" that Lilly is lying about her life story, that her whole story is nothing but lies and her life is nothing of what she has made it seem. She doesn't like lying or keeping the secret, yet she is willing to do this, because she knows that Lilly needs space and time at that moment. She gives her time and waits until Lilly is ready to be straight forward about the situation and talk about the truth. August then becomes a good friend to Lilly and gives her advice about asking for Marys help. There are a lot of examples of characters suffering from the burden of knowing throughout the book. For starters Lily first has feelings of unbareable pain,abandonment and hurt when she finds out that her mother temporarily left her. She wishes she could go back to not knowing, to the times when she use to have to imagine what it was like, making up scenerios in her head. Because the pain of knowing is so strong and hurtful that she just longs to go back to the days when wonder was all that filled her mind. This at least did not hurt so badly and leave her wondering more, as to why and what she had done to make her mother do such a thing. Lilly moves on from the hurt and the knowledge of what happened, and not that she was ready or had a chance to fully think about what happened and process it, but she was forced to do so. She is filled with bitterness and sorrow. Yet, when she sees the photograph depicting her as a baby interacting with Deborah, however, she then realizes her mother loved her. She feels "burdened by knowing" because her life was so much easier before she had so much to think about, and instead of answering the questions she had about her mother, there are just more that come out of knowing. She sees a picture of herself and her mother and feels sudden burden of knowing, because her mother loved her, and because she now knows that her mother left her it makes her feel bad and remorsful about what she has felt and done, had she not known these feelings would not be an issue. All throughout the book she goes through a bunch of different feelings. She starts out wondering and full of questions about her mom and is filled with the want to know, she then finds out and feels hate, and in the end when she realizes how much her mother did really love her she expereinces acceptance. May feels the burden of others pain. She feels pain an dhurt when others hurt, she feels as though she is carrying the world and its sorrow on her shoulders. This begins to takes its toll on her, and although, she tries to make it stop, she cannot take the sorrow and hurting any longer and puts herself out of her misery of this very heavy burden and kills herself. August has the "burden of knowing" that Lilly is lying about her life story, that her whole story is nothing but lies and her life is nothing of what she has made it seem. She doesn't like lying or keeping the secret, yet she is willing to do this, because she knows that Lilly needs space and time at that moment. She gives her time and waits until Lilly is ready to be straight forward about the situation and talk about the truth. August then becomes a good friend to Lilly and gives her advice about asking for Marys help.

2 comments:

  1. I really enjoyed this blog of yours. One thing that really stood out to me that I had not noticed myself was the idea of how August suffers from knowing about Lily. That was not something I had really considered, but it is so true. I am really impressed with your insight into that situation, and how it impacted both August's and Lily's lives. As you said, August was willing to suffer through this, holding onto Lily's secret until she was able to confess it of her own accord. And then when Lily finally does step forward, August instantly forgets any suffering she endured to immediately reach out and help Lily, to almost be a stand in mother for her. She comes in as someone who loves Lily, and as someone who knew her mother, she is able to fill part of that void, as well as tell Lily more about her. Part of this does incite suffering in Lily, as she learns truths about her mother that she had not wanted to know, but ones that she also needed to know. I personally liked how that aspect of the story worked out, as I am someone who would rather know than not.

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  2. You pointed out something from this story that completely flew over my head while I read this story and that was when Lily saw the picture of her and her mother. I think at this point, the burden of knowing grows even more; knowing that she did in fact have a loving mother who first abandoned her and then suffered an accidental death. After reading a couple blogs, especially yours, I thought that maybe May’s pain is symbolic to the pain that is in one or more of these characters. The one that sticks out to me the most is Lily; to me, as a reader, her confidence stood out more to me than her emotional pain. May endures incredible pain, crying to her wailing wall; I think this could possibly symbolize the emotional battlefield going on within her heart, between grieving over the loss of her mother and escaping from home to find somewhere that she can call home. Perhaps without Lily’s strong personality and the influence of the women around her, the pressure might have been too great on Lily and she may have symbolically taken her own life as May did, completely shutting herself down with no ambition to press on.

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